October 21, 2014
I’m quite upset with myself. I drug myself from debt several years ago and now have fallen back into bad habits. I hate this. I’m going to try skimming off my pay checks saving 401k and stock before doing anything drastic like second job.
I don’t want to miss out on life because of this. I don’t want to regret missing out on my peoples lives because I was a dumbass and couldn’t figure my finances out.
I have aver other stupid things on my mind as well. Why do I care about some people when they never really knew or cared about me? Is my heart so soft and fleshy that it can’t distinguish someone who cares as someone who doesn’t. Why feel pain from people who are oblivious?
Im a sucker.