August 7, 2012

  • Today

    I spent the majority of the day feeling icky.  I slept late and stayed in bed most of the day.  I played on the internet the other half.  My new favorite thing is pinning on pinterest    http://pinterest.com/dreams12345/  That's me if you want...

    I have a vacation coming up in October.  I don't anticipate doing anything but I like looking at options and sometimes just looking squashes the travel bug in it's tracks.  
    I did find a bunch of new interesting places I wouldn't mind finding my way to.

    There's a place in Kansas that you can have the cowboy experience.  I'm not sure I'd be physically up to doing it but it would be really cool to be on a ranch and ride horses and be around cattle.  They even let you fix fences and wrangle the cattle if needed.  Plus part of the year (once in April and once in October) they have where you can go on the range and move the cattle from here to there with the camping out under the stars thing.  

    I also found a tree house in Tennessee that takes up over 5 trees.  This guy claims God told him to build it.  Reminds me of that baseball movie.  And I swear I dreamed of this place several years ago (which I don't think it existed then).  

    Anyway I guess I did a lot of "dreaming" today with places.  

    To be honest I wasn't really enthused to do any of that but since I didn't feel good I just kept looking and searching and finding new and different places.  

    Guys you would like the Heart Attack Cafe.  Waitresses dress up as nurses and serve hamburgers that could literally put you in the ground they are so thick and juicey with all kinds of yummy bad stuff soaked in.

    In reality I'll probably just visit my friend in Jackson if I do anything at all but I hate visiting when I'm feeling bad (which has been lately).  I think my depression is contageous and I don't want to affect her moods either especially when her occupation she sees enough depressed and crazy people.

    Least I know that the thoughts I hear so angry and loud are not always mine.  I am more than just what I hear.  But it still doesn't help that I know this sometimes I just want to close my eyes and drift away to that dark place where I can hear and see nothing.  

    Works cut hours again.  I have one week where I'm only getting 32 hours.  I'm suppose to get at least 37 being full time.  I don't know why I worry about loosing my job and hours when I don't like it when I'm there.  I've always been afraid of loosing it and I have actually saved up more than a years worth of my paycheck.  I have enough fluff that I shouldn't worry now but I still do.  

    I hate that I worry so much....  I hate it.

    Please ignore the bad in this entry and only look at the good.  Thanks.  Appreciate it.

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