November 10, 2012

• I need to write so I came here.  

  I have a headache.  It's all sinus congestion.  But it's so draining because it goes on and on and on.  

  Its been rough the last few weeks.  My schedules flopping all over the place.  

  I went to the doctor and found out if I got the dna test to find out if i have the gene like my aunts had for cancer that my insurance company wouldn't pay because it's then called pre-existing condition.  So I didn't get tested (also it was expensive and not covered).  You'd think it would benefit the insurance company to have their people get tested but somehow it's not.

  I'm by myself at the house this week again.  I'm melancholy so I have not reached out or been very social.  

  I've been grumpy and ill and sleepy and tired.  I feel disconnected and used and abused.

  I messed up my knee last week and it's been catching and painful since.  I hear it crack all the time.  I lifted a large bag of dogfood and strained my shoulder muscle.  My feet are still messed up.  I can't sleep.  And I have bruises everywhere from where I keep running into things.  I feel like I'm falling apart and am too old.  

  I am cooking beer something or other chicken in the crockpot.  I read the directions wrong and have boned thighs instead of boneless breasts.  They smell good though and look very well cooked.  Hopefully they will taste better than I think because i don't think I cook well.  

  I kept thinking about ghosts last night.  And hearing things move and my eyes were so tired I swore I kept seeing shadows.  I just need to catch up on my sleep and get a routine again.  This life is not worth all this hassle.  

  I would have voted for Obama but I didn't connect with him.  I didn't connect with Romney either.  Where is a candidate I can connect to and feel proud about.

  Where's a guy that can be financially conservative but socially liberal?  I hate politics please don't expect me to make sence in a political debate.  Please do not debate me I'm too emotional this week.  I'd cry.

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