I really wish I had that part in me that could stand up no matter what for what is right instead of having that frightened person that freaks whenever some asshole starts making a fuss.  I really should have more back bone.

As most everyone knows I have been having a horrible time at work lately.  I don't know if it's the economy and all tanking or if it's more than that going on.  But my store manager and everyone else (trickle down effect) has been absolutely horrid work environment.

Today I went in to work a little early with my breakfast to eat and my store manager was in the break room throwing peoples lunch boxes and lunches away.  Now I work retail and I don't know about other places but where I work a lot of people are scrimping by lately and sometimes not making it on their paycheck because of hours getting changed or lowered but when you chunk someone's lunch and their box away that's a little excessive.  I can understand (policiy is name and date in the fridge) if it's a bag of food from yesturday.  But lunch boxes and lunches from that very day...

He has no respect from anyone and expects people to trimble at his feet.

I wish I could say, "I trimble for no one".

He's like a little dictator.

Later  on after I clocked in I went to the floor and started working.  I went to a case that seemed to be damaged and I couldn't get it to close.  So I told someone to call for our next in line when things get icky (he'd be able to fix it).  I waited forever at the door.  And heard on another isle our store manager erupting in fury because a cart had been left unattended.  It wasn't unattended before I got to the case.  And it was either let all the stuff in the case walk off or stand by the cart.  Finally our next in line showed up.  Only to have to call our store manager over. He proceded to grumble and cuss and gripe for 30 minutes all the while tearing the case apart and making a big mess.

I took the unattended cart away and hid it in the back.  Went to break and breathed.

I went back out apologized to our next in line for causing him trouble.  Then helped customers till lunch.  When I was going to lunch I saw our store manager screaming back behind the layaway area because there was stuff piling up.  So he threw a bunch of boxes made it worse and then went somewhere else.

Everytime we had to call for a manager the rest of the day he would call and say he was being "whomevers" secretary and what did we want and couldn't we make any decisions for ourselves.

I at work as if I'm a third class citizens.  I would also never shop where I work anymore if I couldn't help it.  It's awful how we are all treated.

It use to be easy to find "new" people to read. I haven't found a option that brings me to anything like top blogs or random blogs or anything like that. Any clues as to how to do that?

This is my first time back since a few weeks ago. The day 2.0 launched I came by and realized I hated the set up and also half the set up didn't work for me. Today Im feeling a bit fresh and don't actually mind all the changes.
This past week hasn't been too bad (for me personally). Work didn't suck as much and I had some pretty good connections with friends (even though we are so far away). I won't say that seeing someone that's a pain to me have a hard time was a plus but....
I've had some pretty wicked dreams. Last night I had one where I was seeing a large ship aimed towards me with missiles and bombs. Infrared cameras and lazers that could detect my moment threw the house I was at. It was kind of creepy.
One of my friends at work is going threw some medical problems lately. Hoping she is ok.
Books I've managed to read... Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.
I know only one book in the past few weeks. So unlike me but I honestly have needed a break from everything. I have been vegging in front of the tv watching Master Chef, Under the Dome, CSI:NY, and now Teen Wolf.
I haven't even been working on my geneology. I did make a connection with a lady that is out of TN. She managed to have some pictures of my 2nd and 3rd great grand fathers. My 3rd great grandfather looks exactly like my grandpa it is so very errie. And I know these are my people because before my mother and I ended up in a huge argument she confirmed that she recognized them.
You'd think a family tree would make a family become closer but it's like my mom only thinks of my grandma and her siblings as part of her family. I and my Dad are always "outsiders" due to some strange language she concocts in her head where she's talking but not speaking to us.
I swear she's why I need therapy!

Hopefully you can see this photo... It's one of the photos that the kind lady in TN had. I have already sent them to the photo center to get copies for myself. The photo was probably taken in... 1925 or 1926 since the baby in the photo is probably my great uncle and he was born in 1925.