I've been reading this book while on breaks at work. It's a true story of a girl and her family during WW2.
It's really sad to read. Each chapter seems she looses someone else she loves. And the systematic way the people lost their freedom and how quickly it happened is very frightening to me.
I'm astonished how easy it was for them and how far it spread in so short a time. Think of anyone not just Jews. I can see how any ethic or religious group this could happen to because people turn their eyes away from what they don't like. They no long want to stick their heads out of the sand to speak up for what is right and wrong.
I'm not saying that I've ever seen anything so big on a scale as this but when you don't stop the little things the big things will be easier so yes. Fight for the little things because they are important.

I've had a pretty good few days fallowing my upsets of the week.  

I don't know what you're waiting for. This life is what you get. But here we sit waiting as time just tick tick ticks by.
It's ok. Life sometimes gets in the way. And that's what people say that life happens while we plan other things.
It's hard to change a life. Midway threw. With no ideas and plans to make it better.
Mind control and manipulation. They'd love it if they could make me who they want. The perfect princess...
But I came out different. All noise and loud klutzy china shop disasters... Can't seem to connect because I'm living in the hereafter.
So as I wait and this time tick tocks on by ill pretend this life is perfect and ignore that we're all growing older and were all busy dealing with things that don't mean a thing.

was a pretty good day till dinner.

I'm in a bad mood. Had the "big man" in my department all day making me nervous for almost 7 hours. Came home dog tired and didn't have much good sleep the night before. My bones are all stiff and creeky (ESP my right shoulder blade).
Then I hear in the other part of the house that daddy's going to stay home next trip to grandmas. Which would be fine except I actually am having friends stay over one weekend during said stay. he's going to ruin the fun time. He'll be camped out in the living room watching Fox News. And we will have to hide out in my room playing board games on the floor and watching tv on my fuzzy tube instead of the nice big screen.
Why's he staying home you ask? My grandma made a comment to my uncle who made a comment to my mom that them told my dad. She's afraid he's after her money. :-/ he's upset now. Number one no ones telling grandma her "fears" aren't true. Number two he was trying to make it so she didn't have so much change. Changing out coins for dollar bills. Number three he aught to get over know she's old and senile and these were the very thing grandpa was around to curb in her personality. But he's not there now and no ones telling grandma that this or that thought is not true. They're just saying to the other person don't do this or that cause it upsets her.
So it looks like ill be mrs homemaker with daddy for the last two weeks of February. Yey

Sometimes when I dream I get this "feel" about something that seems on the surface completely not related but I KNOW it's the same thing.

There went freedom. Not home but 3 hours and I'm already being told what I can and can't say or do. *frustrated*
In other news or related news I'm coming along very well on my family tree. Added a person today that someone else seems to think is a descendant of Charlemagne. I recognize that name but can't remember who and what he's important for. Btw IMIGHT BE DESCENDENT of CHARLEMAGNE!!!!! Ha. That felt good.
Got told not to tell people that so guess what... I can only share it here without getting in trouble cause this is a secret xanga account.
God sometimes I wish they weren't so... Well rule like.

Today I got reminded that I was suppose to be a Rock star when I grew up.  Darn if things didn't happen that changed that out come  But it's true....  And I bet you were suppose to be one too.  

I watched Rock of Ages today.  It reminded me of all that good 80s Anthem rock songs that somehow have gotten lost in my music collection these days.  I loved it just cause of the reminders.  What I thought was really cool was the fact that I recognized a couple of people in the movie as being those "Rock Gods" of old.    

The rest of this post is just a photo dump.    Cause I'm going to ride this high until tomorrow.  No Complaining!

Today I felt rested up enough to head to the bookstore.  I needed something fun after this week.  

Icy weather to start my day. 6 hours of sleep the night before. 4 hours of driving. A socially awkward me at a visitation for 3 hours by myself. I really tried to stay longer for my friends but I was exhausted. I saw "something".
Left the church and took the wrong road to where I was staying. Dark and tired combined. Tripped up the stairs stepped on my dress. Couldn't walk right I was so messed up.
Took off the funeral clothes and ate veggy soup and sandwhiches. Chocolates.
Massage to unwind my tensed body. Still tense.
Crashed for bed but its so hot I can't sleep. I want to cry I'm so unhappy. I just want sleep.
Things will change when I get back home. Life shouldn't be so miserable.

My dads miffed at me again. He's now pulled out of going to the services for my friends mom (after I've told her they're coming) and its all because I told him I'd be taking my car with me. Last time I went with them down there I wasn't able to do what I needed to do because I was hindered by them with only 1 vehicle. I was trapped for 5 hours in chit chat mode with relatives. And I wasn't going to get trapped again this time when my friend needs me.
Plus my dad can be pretty controlling and to be honest it's one thing I don't like about going places with him. In front of other people he can be a bit over bearing with me. It's like he thinks its important to put a perfect she does what I say thing out for all. But god forbid I have a different opinion at that time. Anyway he's upset with me now.
He's still sick so it's best for him to stay home anyway so ill just tell them that if they ask why the pull out. I wished I hadn't told them they were coming now.
Not sure where I'll be staying. I'm thinking of getting a hotel for the night. Never stayed in one by myself.
That's the update for today.