I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to swing going to the visitation and funeral now. My manager is trying to look at the schedule. The way she sounded it didn't look promising for either. She might let me off for one but not both. .
On top of that I dumped a whole cup of sweet tea on my bed/floor/socks and feet I got the talent today.

My friends mom passed away this morning. Thanks to all the prayers made on behalf of her. I know it's going to be pretty hard for my friends her family to go threw this.
She was in ICU for several weeks. So it was pretty hard for them the ups and downs everyday and with her being sedated for the ventilator I'm not sure how much she knew was going on.
I'm waiting to see when the funerals happening. We are having some winter weather stuff going on so I'm hoping its going to be late enough in the week that I don't have to worry about bad traveling conditions.
Today's plan to stay warm cuddle with my cat laundry and wait and see what to do. Ill have to do a call out this week for the funeral so just waiting to see what day.

My friends mom is still doing badly. We keep praying the drs keep doing doctorly things and she's not getting any better.
It's really sad to hear her doing so bad. I've been trying to be optimistic but today I just can't seem to keep it going.

In other news I'm still sick too. I think the gunk is just changing places to hang out in my body. This week it's head and ears mostly. Last week throat and chest.

Today I woke up super early even though I was off from work. Had my breakfast (Cheerios) and fed my Coco dog. It rained all day again. I was cold all day AGAIN. And I went to Oxford where my parents introduced me to their financial guy and I handed over all my savings and got a measly business card. I felt jipped. Lol. Actually I feel pretty good about it now after the fact. The guys really smart VERY rich (so he knows how to make my money make money) and a pretty friendly fellow.
Plus his secretary gave me the most fantastic cough drop. Cold-ease cough drops.
Found out my friends moms not doing well at all. She's been in ICU for weeks and doesn't seem to be getting better. Would love for a few prayers to go her way. As always Gods Will but I'd love it if Gods will was to help her recover.
Spent some time on more geneology.
Hunting down the places flags and coat of arms for my little "imaginary" people's
Not much else.

I'm so tired of being strong. I'm exhausted trying to do and be what everyone needs. I need a break. Or someone to just take the burden for a little while.
I can't express what I'm trying to right now. It's all so jumbled.
Going to read a little then go to bed.

So the only thing that seemed right in the whiole dream was seeing my friend Darrell smiling really big at me. Which I know is not normal for him. So what's up Darrell just trying to freak me out in my dreams? He had no worries so problems no issues. He was happy and didn't care about all those worldly things. He was happy in that moment in my dream.
Of corse that's not all...
So I was at my "neighbors" house and they were cleaning up for a garage sale. Only the house looked like my uncles and my "aunt" was my neighbor Donna. She had all these titanic and princess Diane memorabilia. She was trying to get rid of because she over spends and has two of everything. So I was sifting threw. Then I saw my uncle who's dead standing in front of two pictures of two primates. One chimpanze and one arangatange. He was making this weird sign like rock on. I thought this must be where we get our picking on the guys in our family about your brothers an arangatange and all that. Then he started moving. He was very leathery.
I realized the garage sale was suppose to take up money for a missing boy but it was illegal. Got into a big fight with the head lady and made her shut down. She didn't respect her Clint's wishes. Or the boy missing liking Spider-Man.
So then I'm trying to hook this webcam up and it's connected early and people can see me when I'm not ready so I go to fix things in other rooms.

Remembered this great dream from last night. I was photographing everything. Bright reds like paint coming across the sky with every stroke becoming more brilliant. A sunrise of deep orange and reds and even the trees were these same hues. I felt like I was in the middle of the most beautiful painting imaginable and I was able to capture the making and progress with my camera and become part of the painting by being one with it.
Now if I could just feel this way in real life *cough cough*

Putting in my vacation tomorrow. Took me two weeks to roll over all the scenarios.
One week to visit my grandma and do the craft show (maybe an animal encounter if I'm lucky)
One week for a vaca to Florida to visit Katie maybe some old architecture site seeing in St Augustine?
And one week in October where I might do a Big Bang vacation but I've not got anything set in stone. Well just see.
Excited for the possibilities but still sick with the crud. Eating cough drops and chocolate kisses lol.

It's official. I'm sick. And miserable. My extended family is crazy. It's like they live in a separate world from me. I'm use to honesty. When you are hurt you complain things get better but you don't live in delusion that the world is some great wonderful fish bowl where there's no struggle or strife. Get real. And no everything is directed for them that I say. I say things for many reason. Not one of those reasons was for their attention.
*cough* now back to medicated sleep induced dreams.
Had a doozie last night with naked dancing men flopping their penises around. It was like magic mike but funny (no I haven't watched that movie but I'm guessing it wasn't British comedy).

I don't have too much to say today. Last night I dreamed I was back in high school in band learning and failing to get the marching and playing right. It was an interesting time at school. I meshed two separate parts of my past together. I meshed people from high school with college performance.
I guess I'm back to living in the past?
I've been worrying a lot about my dad. His sister my aunt has alzimers (sp that wrong) and lately I've notice he's forgetting stuff and doing things strangely. It's worrying me a great deal. I have no control over this. And no control makes me frantic in a way. But I'm trying to stay steady and rely on God to take the worry from me. That's all I got right now.