I really need to clean. Guarantee ill do my best to get out of it but I REALLY need to buckle down and do it.
The plague has found it's way to my house. It's slowly taking over. I'm hoping I'm immune but since its spreading ill probably be an unfortunate casualty.
Making plans for vacation too. Gotta get those days turned in for work.

I was just happy to be off for Christmas. I didn't care about the presents or decor my main goal was sleep and relaxation. I worked too many days too many hours in a row to care about all those other things. My family was gone till the 23 so they didn't hear me complain about being over worked. Now they're back and have been home only 3 days and are sick. We need quarantine. No spreading the bug around. I don't want to sniffle and cough my way threw January. I was sick enough this year no more!
We had some good food. Christmas Eve after I left work at 5 we had home made crab cakes as big as our plates. Recipe by Paula dean. Then gumbo for Christmas Day. And waffles.
My first attempt at Skype with my friend in Germany was a little hit and miss. Finally got it working right but neither of us know how.
The rest of Christmas was spent cat napping with kashmire. And eating chocolates and cheese balls. Nom.
So how did you spend your days?

Merry Christmas to all my friends here. Love you all!

I finished my Xmas shopping today. I also started it. I desided Xmas is not bad either. It's origin is Christian which I am and was used for locations of worship and places of marterdom as well as the fish symbol. So people whom think its atheistic your wrong. Now your educated so well move on now. :-p
My minds not working well today so no more talking. Photo dump.
Ok 2 photos does not consist of a dump...
Saw the cat and wanted it. I did not get it. I wasn't shopping for me. Thought the dog goggles were very strange!

I warn you it's long.

I was at the top of a very large cathedral. There was a man beside me. He was youthful and worry free. He wanted to show me the sites outside the window. We happened to be in a darkened room like an attic but a closed in space. The window was from the floor to a sharpened spike at the top like it should be for a old style church. He stepped to the window and I viewed out side of it another building. It had a old style look as well. Old folk German look with the white sides and brown outline. Also it looked like a church. There were lots of people mostly they resembled children that were crawling and sliding up and down it. It was a very busy place.
He wanted to know if I wanted to step outside to see more but I was afraid I would fall because I already felt off kilter. The building felt like it leaned.
Another part of my dream I was in my house one story with no walls and a train track went threw the center. It cut my house in two. My family got up and went across town to avoid it and my mother dropped my father and me off at an older church made with stone walls. It was a grey building. There was a lady there to greet us and she was to show us our place in line. She kissed me and I did not like her familiarity at all and wanted to be rude and mean to make her back off but I wasn't suppose to. The head guy of the church came in and he was very flashy. I did not like him either. I didn't belong and would only be here a moment but still had to wait in this long line of people.

It's early Sunday morning and I'm waiting to go to work. Oh what fun what fun....
I hate Sunday.
Last night I dreamed I was moving. No one was concerned. No one cared.

Going to try and keep this light. No deep dark stuff today.
I'm reading The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks. I'm loving it a lot more than the movie but I can't seem to get Ronnie's voice to sound like anyone but Myle Cyrus :-/
My music I ordered online came in yesturday. Pink, Flyleaf, Adele, and oh forgot the country singers name now. Anyway like them all so is happy about that.
Me and Gods been having some serious discussions about the state of my life. We're both in agreement something's gotta change were just feeling each other out now to see what the best change/approach should be. Get back to you later on that. Basically when I know you'll know soon after
Liking the show Parenthood. It's fast paced interesting and not stuffy. Full of people with faults. Why do I like faults in others but it kills me to feel faults in my life?
Bought some fish oil pills for lowering my cholesterol it's got other good stuff too like anti cancer stuff in it too. So maybe that with the diet and exercise will help.
I made myself cry trying to get an out of control nose hair to give up the fight. Those little boogers hurt!

First off I'd like to thank the person who gave me premium all those months back whomever you are.
Second I'd like to say this years been rough and I haven't been here much especially the last few of this year.
Work has been draining me. Somedays it feels like its literally splitting me in two and sucking my soul out.
The past few weeks I have been working all 3 shifts flip flopping back and forth. I broke my diet bc how can you stay on a healthy eating and sleeping routine when you might go in to work anywhere between 7am to 6pm and get off work anywhere from 4pm to 6 am? When do you have a normal sleep schedule or eating schedule when you have to be prepared for anything.
Thankfully I have a semi 3 week period coming up where it looks almost normal. Mostly mornings with a few mid shifts thrown in.
If the night shifts keep getting thrown in thenim afraid ill just have some collapse mentally and string a few words together like "take this job and shove it up you capitalist living ass"
Gotta love spell check....
I have some minor health issues I'm dealing with due to stress and work. My eczema is spreading like a feind and my feet have phantom tingles. And I have this frown that won't die. (((((( for dramatic purposes.

I'm doing better than my last post now. I guess I've caught back on my sleep and slowed down. Had a few really bad days.
Two days ago I took the crock pot out of the fridge and walked two steps and it crashed on the floor. Nothing fell out but the pot was beyond warped. That's how my days have been going.
No rhyme or reason but the disasters are happening.
Either I'm trying to do too much or I'm sabotaging myself.
Next weeks going to be brutal as far as work goes. 1-10 then I'm off thanksgiving. Then I work 6pm to 6am Friday. Then 4-11 with the next day being 7-4. Seriously when am I suppose to sleep?
I might just take a few Xanax and a sleeping bag and camp out in the parking lot. :-/
But still had a good day. Library. Ate out. Family tree. And vampire diaries.
Tomorrow I start my diet again. Dr said my cholesterol was still too high. And so was my iron. So yeah this is a life style sucks change.

I need to write so I came here.