I'm archiving all my previous sites today.
Today is normally my regular day off. Unfortunately work has decided to screw that little happy up for me as well. So I went in and actually worked so hard I thought I might need some extra deodorant. It was a rough day.
) I really should have done drugs at some point to give me a reason for my memory problems. Last night I became sick again. Thankfully I wasn't off visiting and had cancelled my trip. I hate being sick and being sick away from home is even worse. I'm feeling much better today other than having a dull headache.
Kashmir has been keeping me company.
Today is also suppose to be a running day for me. Not sure if ill be up to it by 7 tonight though. I've been doing pretty good for me keeping up the running routine. I've gone threw 4 days of running and the rest day (my skip days) I've been walking.
I hate hearing my family argue. Always in the background yelling at each other. They don't know how good they have it.
Just had an awsome dream that I was someone else. I was inside them in their body moving and being them in their life.
I have to say that this was so cool because they had such a great life. A big house a large family and lots of great neighbors. The neighborhood was spacious and everyone was very friendly.
I was upset because of a person. A man was trying to dictate everyone's lives and I couldn't stand up to him. I kept hiding.
I would go to my room one the second story and look out the window. Eventually opening it and laying on the lawn chair I afixed to the windows edges. I'd watch the amorous amount of wildlife. In the edges of the window was spiders and bugs and webs. Then in the pool below was turtles and other swimming things.
I finally let go and expected to fall to the ground but I hovered above everything. I did not crash.
Im not giving up on xanga.
Ok can't sleep now that I've learned xangans having issues.
I'm not sure how many people have 60k laying around but I hope it gets resolved.
Until then this is my just in case keep in contact strategy
My email.
Lighteningstrikingtwice@comcast.net
You can use this for email or finding me on Facebook.
I need to make goals and stick to them. Live life without compromising because of fear.
Not worry about how I fly but that I do.
I other areas I think I have fibromyalgia but I'm un diagnosed It makes since to me. I have most all of the symptoms. I'm just not giving up just cause most every day of my life I feel like poop.
Nothing's happened or changed. Works sucks (the schedules and rules and expectations all get harder and it hang on or get dumped)
Family life if erratic and scarey. Didn't know you could have funny paranoia but you can. Grandma thought someone was in her house bc someone turned off all her night lights. She had forgot to turn them on cause she didn't need them at 5:15 when she went to bed. And obviously the things the robbers and theives would be after is her night lights. She's got at least five scattered threw the house.
My birthday came and went. No photos this year at all. We ate at Cracker Barrel and I got to do my hair this week.
The lady was older and kept talking about her cateracs. She asked what I wanted done and I told her cut off two inches give me some layers and highlights (red). She cut my hair started the color (cut some more while the foil was in) and rinced then cut some more. Thankfully it'll grow back pretty fast but I hate bangs and now have them. Never said I wanted any. She just give them to me.
I'm unhappy.
Some years are harder than others. Some weeks... Some days... Some moments.
I hate when beautiful people are taken away from me by whatever reason. Distance... Time... Or Disease...
I don't have the greatest memory. Sometimes I rely too much on the other person to keep me connected.
Sometimes it's the only thing keeping me together. You.
You're important. Don't sell yourself short.
You're meaningful.
You're loved.
Don't forget. Don't forget.
*tears*
So little yet so much is going on.
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