Im always in the middle of something these days. Everyone has their opinions but no one is ever tolerant of a differing opinion. Everyone seems to want to argue or bully others into their view.
I'm over stuff like that but I'm not over guilt trips. I'm an easy person to make feel guilty (about anything). I'm a sucker. Sensitive to other people which usually leads me to being seen as wishy washy or hypocritical.
Only God knows my motivations (or anyone else's for that matter). And I can be at peace with that weather I loose friendships or not. Eventually we all answer to our maker for our own actions not others. So I try to live as I think I should in my heart.
The AC is back on. And I didn't melt! Although it did get to 90 in the house before it was finished.
I'll be glad when this curse plays out. Unfortunately it's been alive and well since the beginning of the year. I must have pissed on someone's parade.

My new haircut courtesy of master cuts.

This week is sucking.
My neice is visiting. Yet my dad is being a control freak. My mom is being very opinionated (not in a good way) about all my fun suggestions.
My bro is feeding the child junk 24/7

And I've had a bad work week (the usual)

Dads mad at my neice bc she doesn't eat right is spoiled and is a teenager with a bit of attitude at times.
We have her one week out of well 2-3 years and he wants to bring this disciplinary self out during it. He will make her not want to come back.

We've bowled. And played card games two nights this week. That's the extent of my time.

My bro has taken her to movies and shopped.

Were going to the water park today. I'm miserable. PMSing and grumpy. Today will suck for me.

The entire family not getting along in a car for 4 hrs plus 110+ heat and crazy messed up children everywhere.

Yey me.

This weeks been pretty monotonous as far as my weeks go. Been alone most of it. My brother did come out of hiding today and Thursday. He even cooked one day.
Everyone managed to travel safely thankfully. And my neice and rest of the family got back here this afternoon. The plan is tomorrow to go bowling. Depending on how early my neice rises we may go shopping.
We had one pretty nasty storm come threw this week. Mostly a lot of lightening. Barely any rain at all. We are still in such a bad drought.
I spoke to my friend from Germany for an entire hour the other day. It felt so good. I missed that kind of connection. I don't get that bond with very many people... That in the moment zing.
I leAve you with photos...
Cupcake from GiGis
Lima beans with corn bread.
My stack of unread books.
Desert with some nasty tasting raspberries
Lightening storm
My taco salad
And when you don't have your glasses the iPhone can help you see your weight. I've lost about 17 pounds now this year.

I'm glad everyone's gone this week again. I shall be deliriously happy alone.

This weeks inventory at work. I'm stressed. The bones in my neck and shoulders can attest to that.
Sunday my parents are going back to stay with my grandma. She's a handful, feisty.
Then they'll be traveling to bring my neice back home for a weeks stay. I'm looking forward to it even though her last stay was borderline tragic.
Hoping to bowl, shop for cupcakes, water park and other fun things. I will be working that week though.
Then she'll be taken back.
I'll have to water the garden and outside areas again. Not looking forward to that

I looked into moving out. I seriously can't afford it. I'd have to have another human to share the load with and I'm just not that like able.

Photos...
A friend of mine @LegendaryD wanted me to show some photos of my garden (i've been complaining about having to water so much.  Takes me an hour to do this everyday... I'm probably drowning them.  I am not a plant person.  I'm an animal person. 

The little stuff you have to water them delicately. 

This part here is infested with spiders.  Little red dots with really long legs.  Watered them today and the spiders went everywhere.  This Will Be The Last Day I Water!

Momma has put plants everywhere even down the stairs.

You have to be very careful trying to water in the corner.  This is where the metal is not solid underneath. 

The long view of the rest of her veggies and herbs.

A little closer to the end.  I'm better at keeping the birds alive than the plants.  I keep the feeders filled and their bird bath filled.

These will probably all die.  I forgot these plants don't like too much water and I watered them just like the other plants.

More little nooks and crannies where plants dwell.

More herbs... the cat loves sniffing these.

Im pretty sure I over watered these too.

The side of the house where the rose garden and the other little delicate things are (sunflowers are hiding in there somewhere).

The rest of the garden.  She's got corn and butter beans or lima beans or something in there but nothings producing in there yet.  Only things I've picked this week were tomatoes and a very confused cucumber (looked like a zuchini to me) and some blue berries.

This is a line of fruit trees surrounded by water mellons, straw berries, and peas that circle Coco's pen.


In the very back we have the blue berries... that's where the hose is going to.  I think I drown them today.  I lost track of time.

the front yard had potted plants everywhere

Also flower beds...

I was afraid the front one was going to die.  I can't get there with the hose very well.  I finally pulled out the grass waterer thingie and used it.

This flower bed actually has cantalope and sunflowers planted in it. 

This is my tore all up to peices bathroom when I had to have the plumber come out.  Seemed like a month that I was using my parents bathroom even though it was only a week.

bye bye old toilet...

One of the old photos of my grandpa.  He wrote on the photo "with love" to my grandma.  it's faded almost beyond recognition.  He was 16 or 17 at the time.

This is a photo of him when he was working at the power company.  I liked it because it looks like he has a antenna coming out of his head.  Reminds me of aliens.

An old elementary photo of him. None of us are really sure which one he is but we think it's the short guy in the middle. top row.

It seemed the rain would not end. A steady down pour all over the land.
I trudged threw the streets up to my knees in water.
Into a house and the dry.
Only after the rains came the sinkholes like Thailand. Filled with sinkholes with no end.

So it's me and the cat lately. Compadres.
My bro did make me lunch today. Boneless ribs (from what animal doesn't have bones) and some beans. May I faint and fall out?
I got my evaluation done today. I was told I exceeded expectation on all counts. 50 more cents an hr.
And the photos I'm sharing...
One is the woodpecker that thinks he's or she's a hummingbird. (my fav delinquent)
The food I made yesturday in the crock pot.
And kashmir and I watching tv

So while everyone's gone I've been put in charge of watering the plants. I'm also caring for the animals (usual) except for the birds (outside).
I've been cooking for myself trying to stick to my diet. I've managed to have sandwhiches for lunch. The last two dinners have been broccoli stuffed chicken with brown rice (I cooked way too much of this) and English peas and pickled beats.
Last night I caught the cat bird hunting from inside of corse. She had her ears flattened to her head.
This morning I managed to pick a lot of the veggies that were ripening. Some of them looked like they came from Chernobyl.

There was a girl. She kept talking to this man about opening and closing doors.
One day the man just came into her room and she was startled that he was there. She had to find the upper hand again. She felt vulnerable.
But she had 3 tigers she lived with. And the man started speaking of each and their qualities and how they were.
She finally felt more comfortable. Less threatened and welcomed his friendship back.
The choice between 3 tigers and the qualities is what helped bring this all about.